Lessons Learned

 I have been 13000 miles away from home and back again. I spent my 21st birthday in Australia. I moved home and went back to work at the child development center as an assistant teacher. I remember a year ago when I was talking about not being able to go home. Here I am, at home, paying my parents rent at the age of 21. Im depressed and hate everything about life. I dont like going to church anymore and not sure if I believe in God. Im not in school or doing anything productive with my life. I went to a quarter of college and CNA school back in the fall and winter of 2009-2010 school year. I left and have never been back to that community college to this day. My relationship with my siblings feels like there falling apart. I feel like no matter how hard I try to keep moving forward that I keep falling back more and more. I just cant do it anymore.