Small town USA

I think I should start off by saying that in my 21 years of life I had never had a boyfriend or any boy that I know of like me more then being just "one of the guys". Thats how my life was. I was always with the boys and had very few girlfriends. Thats still how it is, but there was this boy. He was different, or I thought he was different then all the rest. I turns out he wasnt. He is bad for me in every way but for some reason I cant seem to let him go. He was my first kiss. For some reason I seem to have an emotional connection that I cant seem to shake. Its like everytime I try to run the other way something stops me dead in my tracks and makes me run back to him. I feel safe when Im with him, almost like nothing could touch me. I need to learn to run far and never look back.